New Year

Posted on 2011/01/05 08:36:39 (January 2011).

[Tuesday 4th January 2011]

New Year, lots of things going on.

Before I venture into my usual ramblings, I wish you all readers (the few that remained) a great 2011.

At the time of my writing I am feeling a bit strange, I am typing from a travel agency, pretending to be a member of the staff while in reality waiting for my friend, who's the owner, to finish his real job.

I guess that if I have to point a finger on a mood, today that would be... a bit nervous.

Changing the way you have been for a long time is hard, especially because it requires a lot of courage in pushing yourself into doing things that before you were not doing.
I guess that tonight I will see where this little "new deal" will take me, but to make a long story short I am starting, VERY MILDLY, to speak out and say when things are not to my liking.
In the past, in order to avoid confrontation, I would probably let things go, but I don't think that it's a good thing anymore, as sooner or later those issues will come and catch you coming out in a more abrupt and violent way.

To me here comes the hard part.
I find it hard to speak out to people that are close to me because I am scared of loosing them. I think that when you care about a relationship there is a certain point of "bearing" that you must endure, it's impossible to have things every time the way you want it.
But the point is: where is the threshold? Is it worthy to keep things in to save a relationship when the behaviour of that person, or his/her ideas, are not good for you and maybe even hurt you at times?

The new year begins with some major questions, some old one remain hanging in the air and I hope that at least in 2011 we can settle a couple of those.
On the other side, I am quite happy of the developments that I have had in my personal life since May, so at least the major decisions taken back then are resulting to be good ones.

Touch wood and finger crossed, let's hope that this year will be an improvement compared to 2010, if there is anything that I'd like to ask to 2011 it would be more stability both in my private life and work...

Lox, maybe you need a friendly, impartial ear. Wanna talk about it via emails?
I prefer writing down things as it enables me to ponder matters.

Posted by Sheri at 2011/01/05 08:55:30.

I wish you a Happy and Properous New Year Lox!! :-)

OK, this blog entry is full of mystery so I await with baited-breath for developments.

As for our friend Sheri ... Don't write *anything* down - that way blackmail lies.... LOL!!!!! :-D

Posted by Nigel at 2011/01/05 20:29:42.

Thanks for the comments as usual! Yes a bit of a shady post here, sorry, these are foggy times, at least in my mind. Thanks for the wishes!!!

Posted by Lox at 2011/01/06 10:09:17.

Nigel: Lox is a penniless, spineless, totally uninteresting man. And Italian what's more. Why should I blackmail him?

Posted by Sheri at 2011/01/07 07:22:59.

C'mon Lox. Dr Freud is all ears. Speak up, man. Don't keep it to yourself. We should have a regular correspondance to talk about our mutual miseries, you and I.

Posted by Sheri at 2011/01/07 07:25:50.

Why not on a weekly basis. I'm your shrink and you're mine.

Posted by Sheri at 2011/01/07 07:27:04.

(But first I'm gonna have a wank. 'later)

Posted by Sheri at 2011/01/07 07:29:13.

Sheri: AHAHHAHA lol.... I wrote two mails to you but I wonder if you actually received them....

Posted by Lox at 2011/01/07 14:21:26.

I got one, to which I answered with a comment on your last entry. Didn't get the other.

Posted by Sheri at 2011/01/07 16:47:07.

I mean, previous entry.

Posted by Sheri at 2011/01/07 16:48:21.

Sheri: One was a reply to the pictures of your family, the other one was longer which one did you get?

Posted by Lox at 2011/01/08 09:36:10.

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