Sleep?!

Posted on 2009/12/27 03:34:35 (December 2009).

[Saturday 26th December 2009]

I guess that it's that typical feature that stops someone to unwind when the holidays have started.
Yes, I can't seem to be able to sleep, do not know why, but I wake up at 4 in the night for no apparent reason and cannot go back to sleep, not until 7 or 8, a time when I usually wake up.

I think is the fact that my mind has been used to a sort of race in the last four weeks, due to the return to Italy from Asia and the fact that a new boss has arrived to the company where I work.
I will not write too much about it, it's the usual waste of money from my point of view, but that is how big companies seem to be run here in Pizzaland, you just hire a more expensive manager, keeping all the others that run the company in disgrace. Then of course you need to fire one or two employees to reduce costs and hope that all will be better in time.
I have been already in a situation like this, and I know from experience that it's already time to change, if only the job market wasn't so stuck as it is now...

Either than that I cannot think of a reason for not sleeping, maybe the fact that in the last two days I have done almost nothing doesn't help me in feeling tired?

I check my work mail, it seems that also my Asian friends are having a quiet little Christmas, no new mails, nothing to check.
I try looking for someone on the internet, someone long gone and lost, but to no avail.
I even read. Yes, it's nothing to be proud of, but I stopped reading almost completely, internet, video-games and movies are keeping me entertained more than adequately, I have never been an intellectual and I probably will never be.

Oh well, let's hope is a passing thing, the next appointment is on the 30th when I fly to Berlin with Chiara and some friends to spend the New Year's Eve there (actually we are staying a little longer). It should be a fun thing for sure, it has been a long time since I spent a New Year's Eve abroad, last time was JAPAN 1997 (I think).

P.S.
Maybe it was better if I didn't stay up. Spent 2 hours looking at old letters and pictures, including the ones when I was living in Reading. I have to thank John for scanning those pics because otherwise I wouldn't have any memory of those times as I didn't own a camera back then. Still Year's End it's not the best time to do something like that, now not only I am not tired but I also feel all melancholic and shite, and I miss her. Not good.

As you say Lox, New Year is a time to reflect. But we should all reflect positively if we can! Not easy sometimes.

Yes, Christmas here has been a bit too quiet. I haven't heard from many of my friends so I guess they are all too busy (and besides they mostly live a long way away these days)

Still, there's enough to keep me bust - and I don't go back to work until after New Year so that's a bonus! :-D

Posted by Nigel at 2009/12/27 10:36:13.

Whom do you miss? Who's "her"?

Anyway, tell us about Berlin ! I s'pose you got pissed. Any pictures?

Posted by Sheri at 2010/01/05 05:13:51.

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