Christmas Time

Posted on 2009/12/21 18:29:59 (December 2009).

[somewhere in December 2009]

First of all, sorry.

As Sheri pointed out in a different post, I have reduced drastically my posts to MDS, which is a crying shame, first because I love to write, secondly because I missed doing it and I guess a lot of "rage" and "anger" that I stored recently could have been channelled through my writing.

So what's happened since I last wrote about my Korean Hangover?

Quite a lot actually...

1. Sick and Tired

I managed to get N1H1 the last 3 days of my stay in Japan and had a total ordeal when flying back to Italy.
The WORST ever air trip of my life, I was completely feverish (never had fever in the last TWENTY YEARS, at home I didn't even have a thermometer!!), every half an hour having to go the the toilet to spit phlegms and other shite, couldn't sleep a single minute and had a massive headache all the trip. The flight was also quite interesting because I was in constant fear that someone would have reported my status to someone and then I would have gotten quarantined (or shot). Fortunately in Europe they do not check body temperature as they do when you travel inside Asia, otherwise I would have spent the last 40 days in FRANKFURT!

2. Fiorentina qualified for latter stages of Champions League

Although I had fever, and started a very heavy course of antibiotics, I could not miss the match against Olimpic Lyonnese two days after I arrived to Florence (I bought the ticket 1 month before). It was a good match but the fact that I sick spoiled it a little.

3. Work is bad

New big boss coming in the company, rumours of more people going to be laid off soon. The situation is getting heavy, in a typical "dog eat dog" atmosphere. The problem is that although I did a good year, all things considered, my section is the "loosing one" in terms of results, and the first meetings with the new guy is in on the "no compromises" clause, it seems.. We'll see what happens.

4. Christmas

This deserves the closing statement of this post. Christmas.
I do not like Christmas... Actually I quite hate it.
Yes, I am one of those sad lunatic individuals that cannot stand it, that cannot find any pleasure in going out and about to spend lots of money (or little money) on presents, I am one of those ones that NEVER knows what to give to other people, I am one of those who'd rather spend the afternoon at home than going in a huge commercial centre to be immersed in a throng of drones driven by the consumerist need of having to buy "something". I didn't even make a Christmas tree at home, a thing that I do not like at all, although I feel guilty because maybe Chiara would have liked to have one, but if she waits for me doing it there is no way that's going to happen.
Then there will be Christmas day with my family, the only good thing is that there will be my sis'kids, I love to play with them, they really are the spirit of Christmas for me.

How comes that life brought me down so much? It's that present conditions (mental and empirical) are driving all my focus to very down to earth issues, and there is little left for imagination, if I save the odd computer game that I play every now and then.

But still this hatred towards Christmas has deeper roots, even when I was younger, in my twenties, I never really liked this event. My life at the moment is like suspended in a limbo that I quite hate. I do not seem to move backwards or forward doesn't matter, I am stuck. Work has a "monthly prospective", meaning that I do not know if I will have a job next month. I am renting, would like to buy a house, but how can I if I do not know if I am going to be employed next month? I could buy a car, I would need it actually, but even that it's not possible, because I worry about the bills, do we really need two cars when we use only one? I'll leave it at that, no need to deepen things, but all in all if I may ask something from 2010 is some certainties, please...

That's it, Christmas is coming, as usual I feel uneasy, the only thing that I look forward is a trip to Berlin with Chiara and some friends for New Year's eve, I hope it will be fun, and above all I hope it will be tension-free!

Don't let Chiara read your stuff! Sounds like you're most unhappy. I can hear the girl saying : "E io ? Non sei mica contento di avermi ? Il futuro? Il tuo padrone ? i denari ? Bo, chi se ne frega! Sono qui con te ! E la cosa piu importante ! Non e vero ?"

Posted by Sheri at 2009/12/21 21:01:29.

About Christmas trees. Yeah I know what you feel. There is something which is broken in us. The line which links childhood to adulthood has been severed, somehow.

Posted by Sheri at 2009/12/21 21:06:49.

Sheri: Naaaaa Chiara knows that she's important and to be honest there aren't major issues there, but if things are not good there is nothing I can do about it.
And there isn't just "love life" (of which I do not speak about so we could assume that all is fine), it's a matter of fact...

Posted by Lox at 2009/12/22 08:07:51.

Great to read, Lox! Sorry though that you share my own view of Christmas!

I remember you mentioning your illness in Japan and was worried for you. Glad things have improved.

Sorry too that work is so unsettled...

Well, you have inspired me (and Sheri has successfully bullied me!! :-D) I shall go write my own piece now!!

:-D

Posted by Nigel at 2009/12/22 08:56:03.

Did you mean H1N1? As in Swine Flu? I thought you said it was bronchitis? I didn't think antiobiotics were much help against flu...?

Anyway, whatever it was, you're better now, right? I very much hope so!

Posted by John at 2009/12/23 11:55:31.

John: H1N1 starts as a flu, but what kills you is all the rest (bronchitis, infections etc etc)... I was not "officially" diagnosed H1N1, but I was given an antibiotic that normally is used with those patients (1MG of antibiotic is quite a huge amount, on the top of it). Now I am ok anyways! :D

Posted by Lox at 2009/12/23 16:03:28.

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