The problem is me

Posted on 2008/01/07 21:06:42 (January 2008).

[Monday 7th January 2008]

It's now more than four months that I drive to work with another person. He's a guy from our computer department (couldn't have been different!!) and he's almost close to pension.

It's quite great to drive together, firstly because he has a lot to teach me about how things are in the company, but also because he's got a lot of "wisdom" to pass on.

I love the way he likes going to work, always trying to look at the positive side of things, even if it's a crap day he always tries to find some viewpoint from which is possible to look at the famous "half full" glass.

On the contrary there is me, always looking at the other side, the stupid downhearted "realistic" and "half empty" Lorenzo...
Today we were talking about it, how mental attitude can change things a lot, how in his opinion I have to try to be more happy about things because even that small detail can make a huge difference.

For many years I have never realized that I needed to change my attitude towards life. It seemed that everything was against me.
Then in the last two years especially after I cam back here, things are slowly changing and now I do realize that I am in the wrong. Or at least that I should try to make things a bit easier on me, by trying to have a more positive attitude.

Still, I am not able to change, it's up and downs, mostly coinciding with external factors and happenings that bring me down to the old "whinge, whine, cry".

Well I need to try to change a little, at least now I know that there is a problem, so I can do something to correct it...

Let's hope that I can do it, the stability that I am looking for cannot come from external factors, must arise from within!

Morning Lox! Well, I say "Good for you!" It is hard to realise that happiness comes from within, and I must admit I suffer a little in the same way.

I think one of the big contributing factors though is the way society "expects", or at least advertises, success so much in this "celebrity culture", that it is difficult for the average, hard-working person to match up to. It is so easy to feel like a failure...

If it helps though, you must be one of the hardest-working people I know. Look at the effort you make! Actually rather excellent! :)

Posted by Nigel at 2008/01/08 08:50:38.

Nigel: There is certainly a lot of pressure from external society, but it's up to us to fight these messages. Generally speaking I find the total lack of something stable as the main problem... I am really busting my ass in the present job, hoping that in two months time I will not have some nasty surprise. It could be a starting point, but in the meantime I have to try to change things even if I am not in the best situation to do it...

Posted by Lox at 2008/01/08 19:41:18.

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