Fit of Rage

Posted on 2006/05/05 10:16:06 (May 2006).

[2nd - 4th May 2006]

Nothing much to report, apart from a general foul mood that I have had in the past days. I cannot put my finger on what it is, but I get extremely pissed off for very small things.

For example I set off on Tuesday to make some potatoes and fish fried balls. I have been craving for this special recipe since Saturday, but since we didn't have the potatoes we couldn't make anything at the weekend and we had to wait for the shops to be open to buy the materials.
So I started cooking with Marta until I went to the bathroom before frying.
Marta decided to undergo the task, shame that she put the oil on a medium sized cooker, meaning that the oil didn't get as hot as it should have done and completely ruining all the food (basically they got shallow fried, totally sucking in all the crapy oil).
I was so upset that while stabbing the fishballs with a fork I bent it almost at 45 degrees... needless to say that I stormed out in a fit of rage and didn't have anything for dinner.

Same story at work, where my new assistant had to go to the hospital, fortunately nothing serious, but she has to stay there for some more tests. So I have to do her part of the job too, not a big problem, but I so easily get pissed off by little things that I start uttering blasphemies and throwing punches at the table.

Not a good period huh?!

This coming weekend I am going to Follonica (near Florence) for a wedding party, then I will have Monday to sort out things before my coming trip to Asia. Hopefully that will calm me down a bit.

Still I haven't figured out what's wrong, why I am acting in such a way. I can't help the feeling of being "forced" to do something that I really don't want to do, but what this thing is remains unknown at the moment...

I get days like this too.

Normally only one at a time though!

I would guess it's a
mixture of physical and
mental factors.

The physical could be diet related, or maybe just tiredness.

The mental side could be a feeling of frustration about a lack of control over your life at the moment...?

Dr John prescribes plenty of water, fresh
fruit and vegetables, a few good night's sleep, self indulgence, and quality time with good friends.

Posted by John at 2006/05/05 13:13:06.

...oh and mindless escapism.

I found Sherlock Holmes very good for this, but maybe that's just me!

DVDs have the important benefit of requiring zero effort.

I assume you've seen Amelie? If that film can't dispel your bad mood then you are beyond help!

Posted by John at 2006/05/05 13:31:21.

John: You are right it's a mixture of several factors. Yed I did watch Amelie but I haven't got the DVD with me. I play a lot with the new computer at the moment, helps my mind being taken away from sad things, but I have a fear that even that it's responsible for me feeling this way... Oh well This weekend I'll see my friends, so that's good news.

Posted by Lox at 2006/05/05 13:36:21.

Are you having menstruations?

Posted by Sheri at 2006/05/05 18:32:17.

Yes, it sounds like "frustration" and "aggrivation". I always find a "Carry On..." film lifts it for me, or a PG Wodehouse "Jeeves and Wooster" story! :)

Posted by Nigel at 2006/05/05 23:53:12.

My apologies - that should have been "aggravation"! What am I like?!?!?

Posted by Nigel at 2006/05/06 24:27:15.

I think it's all my fault. I completely forgot to give you the recipe of Portuguese cod balls...
This doesn't mean that, having the right recipe, you would have done better, but I still feel a sense of guiltiness...

Posted by Lank at 2006/05/08 13:16:46.

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